How Has It Come To This ?

Dear I,
              Today I did the hardest thing ever. Today I renounced credit. I refused, in absolute, the attachment of an activity, a thought, a word, an essay or any thing else with my name, or what we imply by saying our name, that is our self our identity call it what you will.
It is time to come out, come out in the open, to reveal. We can be open yet subtle but we should not hide behind these treacherous words. They cannot convey truly what we wish to say what we feel. I love you, I love this and I love that. Where is the difference ?
Are we supposed to see the subject ? The predicate ?
This shall not be.
It can not be.
                                                             In tears,
                                                                  R